We got to watch Connor’s acting debut as Old Mac Donald together. He was SO cute! Connor was sad when he had to go to school. Gwynn would say, “Yuck!” every time we kissed :0)Dustin surprised me with a night away for my 30th (gasp!!) Birthday. We started off the day with soccer games. Then we went and spent a small fortune at the movie theater. We haven’t done that in years, literally. Then we drove to our get-away. I knew exactly where we were going when I saw where he was driving. Dustin
surprised me with a suite at the Broadmoor. The Broadmoor is a 5 star hotel and let me tell you what…I felt like one of the Beverly Hill Billies! I was so embarrassed when the valet opened the back of our car to get our luggage and Connor’s bat fell out the back!! I am not one of those ladies that likes to be waited on. I felt uncomfortable as the men in suits opened doors for me, carried my duct taped luggage and walked us to our room. I was one of THOSE guests that took pictures of everything! My favorite was the buttons that opened and closed the curtains!Dustin took me out to dinner at one of their restaurants. It was quite a different experience from Texas Roadhouse (where the kiddos chose to take me out the night before for Mother’s Day and my Birthday...and Gwynn asked me "Why don't you care for me mother?") for sure. Instead of being clapped at and having to listen to an
annoying song, they brought out a piece of flourless chocolate cake that had a pencil shaped piece of rolled chocolate with gold flecks in it and a scoop of vanilla ice-cream (not complementary) with a small lit candle in it…no singing, just pure yum! When we went back to our room, everything was turned down, robes were laid across the corners of the bed, the curtains were drawn, and a smooth jazz was playing on the radio. The only thing missing was the drawn bath. We enjoyed a quiet evening together. I felt like I was sleeping on a cloud in the king sized bed with a down pillow top and down pillows. The only thing better than sharing my cloud with my hubby, was getting up the next morning and going to pick up our kiddos to celebrate Mother’s Day. I am a blessed woman!
Of course the rest of our time with Dustin went by way too quickly. Connor begged to stay home from school on his last full day with us. We decided to send him though. I knew when the phone rang at 1 who it was…our “sick” son wanting to come home. I didn’t have the heart to make him stay, so daddy went and picked him up. They got matching haircuts and we enjoyed our last afternoon and evening together.
Saying goodbye again is hard. Adjusting again is hard. It was amazing the difference in Gwynn when daddy was home. She was a happy, snuggly little girl. It’s so nice to know that your kids love their daddy as much as you do. Days after he left, my brother Abraham, his wife Megan and their son Alex arrived here. They are in the process of moving up. They stayed with Elizabeth. Days later, my in-loves arrived for a week. They were here for all 10 seconds of Gwynn’s last soccer game (it got rained out), Connor’s soccer game and his Kindergarten graduation. What an experience that was! As I watched Connor walk up the isle to his seat, I started to cry. It’s been a long year. Dustin wasn’t here when he started school. He wasn’t there to watch him graduate. We’ve been through a lot this year, and it’s finally coming to an end! The day after the grands left, Abe and family moved over to my house. Then my parents came down and got to watch Connor’s last soccer game. They are leaving tomorrow. I am not sure how long my brother and gang will be here. It’s been a busy and crazy month!!
The one thing that has complicated this all, is what happened a week after Dustin got home. I got sick. I was in a lot of pain and Dustin and I couldn’t enjoy each other so I decided to go to the dr. I was diagnosed with ovarian cysts. I had them when I was in college, but not this badly. He gave me Tylenol 3 and ordered an ultrasound. I was so sick though, nauseous and in so much pain. I actually went back to the dr and he told me I was going to be fine and to just wait for my ultrasound. I apologized to Dustin over and over. What timing! We have 2 weeks together, and this happens! He was so sweet and understanding. He told me that just being with me was enough for him. He had to leave, not knowing what was going on. That was really hard.
I finally got my ultrasoud on Friday, May 20th. The tech said she couldn’t give me any official results, but, “I wouldn’t spend too much time worrying about it over the weekend,” she said with a smile. It had already been 2 weeks, what was a few more days? Monday came and went and I didn’t hear anything. Tuesday I got a call from my dr. I couldn’t make it to the phone, but he left a message. My ultra sound showed abnormalities in my cervix (potentially Cervical Cancer) and it also showed that I mostly likely had Pelvic Inflammatory Disease…I needed to get in for a pap ASAP! It’s no wonder the tech didn’t see anything, there weren’t cysts to see!
The news was a crushing blow. Here I thought I had cysts and it turns out to be much worse. I called and got an appointment for the next day. I have to tell you, I have never felt so dirty in my whole life. I got tested for a few different STIs (because they are the common cause of PID and Cervical Cancer). I have only ever been with Dustin. Dustin has only ever been with me. In fact, we were virgins when we got married. (I told you there might be TMI in this blog!!) After having done everything right, it just felt so wrong to be tested for STIs. The dr did tell me that everything looked pretty good, so she wasn’t sure what was going on. She gave me a prescription for 2 antibiotics and a shot of antibiotics before I left. Based on how I am feeling, I am not at all surprised that it is taking 3 antibiotics to take down this infection! I have another appointment on the 14th of June to get my results. Until then, I am just riding it out with my Tylenol 3, prayer and lots of love and support.
I really never expected to find myself in this situation. Not at 30 anyway. I’ve been doing a lot of Googling and have learned that if the abnormalities in my cervix are in fact Cervical Cancer, that it is a very slow growing cancer and if caught early, 100% curable. I just had my annual exam in Sept and was told that I could now go to having it every 2 years! Just imagine if I hadn’t gotten sick with PID, I would have gone another 1.5 years without a pap and who knows what mess I could have been in by then! It took me a few days to get over the shock of the news. However, everything happens for a reason. I know that no matter what happens; I will be okay. There is nothing too big for my God and there is nothing I can’t do with Him on my side.
Casting all my cares upon Him, for He cares for me! (1Peter 5:7) I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:13)
